Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Five Months!

Dearest Harper,




Your smile melts my heart. Your laugh is infectious. You're just beginning to recognize your name. You're more mobile than ever; you start on your play mat and end up across the room. You're not crawling, but it's coming. You like food. You're happy. You're loving. You're absolutely adorable. Just when I think I couldn't possibly love you more, you do something that proves me wrong. I love that you're my baby, and I love being your Mommy.

I love you,

Mommy

Saturday, March 21, 2015

Your Godparents

Dearest Harper,

Val and Jeremy are some of the most amazing people we know. Val is Daddy's cousin, and Jeremy is her husband. They got married in 1998, and at the wedding was where I met a lot of Daddy's family for the first time. Over time Daddy and I grew closer and closer with them, mainly because we had the same struggle with infertility and bonded over that awful gift. Opening up to each other about that allowed us to open us to each other about everything, and now, as Val put it the last time we saw them, we're life family who are also best friends.

Daddy and I chose Val and Jeremy to be your Godparents because we knew they'd be absolutely perfect. They are loving and kind and generous and fun and spiritual and appreciative of the beauty the world has to offer, all while hugely contributing to it themselves. They are smart and funny and witty and sassy and sarcastic and find humor in most everything. They've traveled, they've seen things, they've done things, they've spread messages of tolerance and love, they've lived life, they have experiences under their belts. If anything ever happens to Daddy or me, they are exactly the kind of people we want to raise you, because we know they'll do an amazing job. They have lots and lots of love to give, lots and lots of life to share, and what better people to have in your life than that?

So in July of 2014, Daddy and I traveled to the Central Coast (That's where they live. It's about 5 hours away from Sacramento, where we live.) and, as we called it, popped the question to them. They had no idea it was coming, and were not only surprised, but super honored. Of course they said yes, or I wouldn't be writing this post!



Val met you for the first time in November when you were just 3 weeks old. Jeremy had to stay behind because he was preparing to open his own coffee shop in Paso Robles (told you he was smart!) It was love at first sight. Val and Mommy cried a little.



Val visited for a second time in January when you were just over 2 months old. Again Jeremy had to stay behind because the coffee shop was very close to opening, and missing the visit killed him inside.


Finally, in March, we took a trip to the Central Coast so you could finally meet Jeremy. It was wonderful! He picked you up and loved on your right away. He had had a hard week at work, and he said you made it all melt away. He said you are his happy thought whenever he needs one.


During our visit, we had lots of adventures. Both Val and Jeremy are musically inclined. Jeremy brought out his ukulele and sang you songs. You were captivated by the live music! You looked at him and smiled, and he even let you play a little.


We took you to the beach for the first time.The beach is our happy place, Daddy and me and Val and Jeremy. There's just something about the ocean that's good for your soul. Maybe it's the sound, maybe it's the smell, maybe it's the life it sustains, maybe it's the vastness, and maybe it's a combination of all of these. All I know though is when we're at the ocean, everything is ok, all of our troubles disappear, and our spirits get recharged.

I think the ocean is in your soul too, baby. You didn't cry, freak out, or even flinch when we put your feet in the sand and let the waves lap around your feet. You stared bright eyed at everything, taking it all in.




As you get older, we have grand plans to send you to spend some time in the summer with Val and Jeremy. I fully expect you to come back knowing how to play guitar and drums, and knowing how to surf. You'll have had great conversations, good (meatless!) food, and good drinks. You'll have heard great stories and known love like no other. Your soul will be recharged and the smile on your face will be ear to ear. You are one lucky little girl.

I love you,

Mommy

UPDATE: Around your 2nd birthday, Val and Jeremy were having troubles in their marriage, and eventually separated and divorced. They are both still very involved in your life and love you tremendously. They both will ALWAYS be here for you, it's just separately now, instead of together.



Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Monday, March 9, 2015

On The Move

Dearest Harper,

On January 26th, you rolled over from front to back.



Today, you rolled over from back to front.


Soon, you'll be crawling, then walking, then running and riding a bike and roller skating... And we'll be here to capture it all!

I love you,

Mommy

Friday, February 27, 2015

Four Months!

Dearest Harper,

Four months old... Man, time is flying!


I returned to work this month. The anticipation of it was way worse than actually doing it. I do miss you something fierce when I'm gone though. Daddy and Grandma send me pictures, which helps, but when I come home, I just want to hug you and never let go. Because I'm away from the house for about 13.5 hours on work days, I get nervous that you won't remember who I am when I get home, but so far, every night you've given me a big smile, so I think we're good.

You have a new thing this month where you won't sleep during the day. You're obviously tired, so I'll feed you and you'll fall asleep, but the second I lay you down in your crib, you wake right up. Same thing with Daddy while I'm gone at work. You have no problem falling asleep in our arms, but once we set you down, you're awake. We don't want you to be the kind of baby who can only sleep when held, so we keep trying. The part that makes it super frustrating though is that by 5 or 6 pm, when you haven't napped, or haven't napped enough, you're a MESS. You're exhausted, so you cry and cry and cry. Nothing makes you happy on these nights. We don't want to give you your bath and put you to bed that early because you'll wake up in the middle of the night, so we try to keep you happy until 730pm at the earliest, but some nights it's hard. We can't relax because you're so unhappy. And it's your own fault. We can do everything else for you - feed you when you're hungry, clean you when you're dirty, entertain you when you're bored, love you when you need snuggles, but only YOU can put yourself to sleep. Everyone says it's a phase you'll outgrow. We can't wait. We miss our happy girl.

Developmentally, you're reaching for things and actually getting them. Everything goes in your mouth, including your newest favorite - your feet! You love looking at yourself in the mirror, and really, who can blame you - you're beautiful! Your curly hair, dark, long eyelashes, and happy smile make for one pretty girl!

Daddy and I are still blown away that we made you, that you're THIS awesome, and that you're ours.

I love you,

Mommy

Thursday, February 26, 2015

Time for Real Food!

Dearest Harper,

They say you can start giving your baby real food between 4-6 months of age. You've been showing an interest when we eat for the past two weeks or so, watching the fork go back and forth between the plate and our mouths and watching us drink. Daddy and I are huge foodies - we LOVE food - so of course we're excited to set you on the same path. Here we are, feeding you real food for the very first time - avocado.



Your faces. The gagging. The green drool - who knew it could all be so fun and adorable?! By the way, Mommy made a rookie mistake and didn't give you a bib. I thought I could control the mess. I was wrong. And apparently, avocado stains. That shirt went in the garbage...

Here's to many more food adventures. Soon we'll be on gourmet burgers and creme brulee!

I love you,

Mommy

Saturday, February 14, 2015

Happy First Valentine's Day!

Dearest Harper,

You were beautiful in your red dress! And, of course, we held to our tradition...



Normally, Daddy and I don't really celebrate or do anything special for Valentine's Day - why should a day be set aside to show your partner you love him/her? You should do that every day!

I love you,

Mommy