Four months old... Man, time is flying!
I returned to work this month. The anticipation of it was way worse than actually doing it. I do miss you something fierce when I'm gone though. Daddy and Grandma send me pictures, which helps, but when I come home, I just want to hug you and never let go. Because I'm away from the house for about 13.5 hours on work days, I get nervous that you won't remember who I am when I get home, but so far, every night you've given me a big smile, so I think we're good.
You have a new thing this month where you won't sleep during the day. You're obviously tired, so I'll feed you and you'll fall asleep, but the second I lay you down in your crib, you wake right up. Same thing with Daddy while I'm gone at work. You have no problem falling asleep in our arms, but once we set you down, you're awake. We don't want you to be the kind of baby who can only sleep when held, so we keep trying. The part that makes it super frustrating though is that by 5 or 6 pm, when you haven't napped, or haven't napped enough, you're a MESS. You're exhausted, so you cry and cry and cry. Nothing makes you happy on these nights. We don't want to give you your bath and put you to bed that early because you'll wake up in the middle of the night, so we try to keep you happy until 730pm at the earliest, but some nights it's hard. We can't relax because you're so unhappy. And it's your own fault. We can do everything else for you - feed you when you're hungry, clean you when you're dirty, entertain you when you're bored, love you when you need snuggles, but only YOU can put yourself to sleep. Everyone says it's a phase you'll outgrow. We can't wait. We miss our happy girl.
Developmentally, you're reaching for things and actually getting them. Everything goes in your mouth, including your newest favorite - your feet! You love looking at yourself in the mirror, and really, who can blame you - you're beautiful! Your curly hair, dark, long eyelashes, and happy smile make for one pretty girl!
Daddy and I are still blown away that we made you, that you're THIS awesome, and that you're ours.
I love you,
Mommy
